All time low

Last semester, for some technical reasons, I couldn't register for 1 minor subject which is Microeconomics. Yet, instead of using the opportunity to achieve good results (since my credit hours was very low compared to my coursemates), I slacked off and I received an even lower results than the first semester.

This has taken its toll on my self-esteem and my confidence level which was already an all time low. Only a small number of people know my pointer.
And that's not including dearest Farid. (sorry...)
Sometimes I'm afraid of embarrassing him since he's such an achiever, much the opposite of myself.

Anyway, about the Microeconomics, now I have to take it this semester along with Macroeconomics.
That's TWO minors for this semester.
So if I sum up my credit hours, it's a total of 24.
Best of all, I have to take it ALONE.
Splendid.

But, that is, if the Dean of SST approves. I'm at the library now, and after Iffy goes home I'll be going to meet Dr. Harun to show him that Borang Pelepasan Jam Kredit. :P

I have no idea if this is the right thing to do. Almost everyone I asked said almost the same thing: "kalau boleh angkat, ambik seja la..."
True... but that didn't really help.
Of course, I have friends from SPE who can teach me some stuff, but I can't count on them all the time.
Yet if I don't take it this semester, then most probably I'd have to extend. 0_0 *gulp*


One more thing that worries me...
Silat.
Come August, there will be a competition - wajadiri - held in Sarawak. I may (have to) be one of the participants in this event, since it was said that Sabah is sending the lowest number of representatives compared to the other states.
So because of that, we're going to have extra training hours. That, plus the 15 mins walk of Kg. A - Stadium UMS (to and from).
By the time we get back to our rooms, we'll be exhausted.
So tell me, how am I going to survive taking 9 subjects?

Yet Abang Arom (our trainer/penyelia) did say that they don't want students to excel more in silat than the academics.
Perhaps I could just withdraw?

Haiz... Jadi macam tu???


I think, to you, the answer might be obvious... tarik diri...

But I want to go to Sarawak!!! Bukan selalu tu dapat pegi...

Oh, dilemma~