Here's a feel good song for you to sing.

The Way I Am

Written by Ingrid Michaelson

If you were falling, then I would catch you
You need a light, I'd find a match

Cuz I love the way you say good morning
And you take me the way I am

If you are chilly, here take my sweater
Your head is aching; I'll make it better

Cuz I love the way you call me baby
And you take me the way I am

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair
Sew on patches to all you tear

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise
And you take me the way I am
You take me the way I am
You take me the way I am

p/s: IP MAN ROCKS!!!

16 random things

Tagged by Bro Paival

I just so happened to visit my brother's blog and saw that I got tagged. Hm... never done this before. :D

You can do it in your blog, or your Facebook notes. Do it in English, but malay pun boleh if u want. :D

Rules:

1. Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.
2. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged.
3. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
4. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

My Rule: mesti buat!
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1. When I was a kid, I used to want to think like a grown-up, but I grew up being childish.
2. I love food. I can eat almost anything as long as they're halal and delicious. I usually finish up the food if my roommates couldn't.
3. I love cats. I have an adorable cat named Obi.
4. I can only cook simple stuff, like rice, scrambled eggs, fried rice, etc. and only a few hours ago did I managed to cook the cabbage without mom's help. :D
5. I only started blogging because my friend does it, and it got serious because I found out about nuffnang. :D
6. My friends tend to seek me for their love problem. I have no idea why, because I only ever had two relationships before, and they weren't actually successful. (Perhaps it's because I don't seem to have any problem with them at all?)
   
7. I have this problem with my confidence level, so if you've met me in person, you should notice that I may talk a lot to certain people only. Yet in some cases, I can get along with people after a few minutes. Sometimes, chemistry is all it takes. :D
8. I got flu a few days ago. I think I've infected the whole family. (Including the kitten.)
9. I'm a perfectionist, but not the type that would definitely get things my way, no. It's just that I would get annoyed (like totally annoyed) when things aren't in order. I used to count my footsteps when I was little. I think it's a syndrome thingy, not sure. But it may be why I take time to do things.
   
10. I like to laugh. You'd probably notice on my messages, or friendster bulletin, or anywhere my words could be seen, that there would be a lot of Haha's, Hehe's, or Hihi's. I just don't like being gloomy. That's all.
11. I love my family. I love my friends. Enough said.
12. As my brother have mentioned, all of my siblings enjoy anime (especially Naruto) and rock music. However, I am the only one who cannot play any instrument. The closest I have ever been into music was the nasyid competition back in Labuan Matriculation College, where I was one of the lead and we got 4th place.
13. My life-long dream was to learn how to play piano and sing A Thousand Miles and White Houses by Vanessa Carlton. I also want to learn guitar and drum...just don't have the spirit. :D
14. I like to share stories, but I sometimes exaggerate a little. :P
15. I am not a morning person.
16. I love Secret Recipe cakes, Big Apple donuts, Famous Amos cookies, McD's double cheeseburger, KFC's cheesy wedges, Cadbury chocolates, mamatua's kelupis and my mom's kuih makmur!!!

Finally...very hard oh diz. Finding people for me to tag is very hard also.

So I'm tagging..

1. Norif Paival Yahya
   
2. Farhana Poniman
   
3. Valentino
4. Herda
5. Lhye Fara
6. Nurulah Ernesto
7. Jin Kuning
8. Fatin Nadiah
9. Sahariful Rizal
10. Feeqah Ridzwan
    
11. Ma Rk
12. Junior Isidto
13. Hafizah Yakubah
14. Fara Yahya
15. Ashaan Niyas
16. Nazierah Najmuddin

thank you!

nothing tastes good when you're sick

I think I had flu since the day before yesterday, and it wasn't fun - especially when you're trying to enjoy Big Apple's donuts and Daytona. I went out yesterday with 2 of my cousins to Centrepoint and Warisan Square, and joined my mom, aunt and some cousins at 1Borneo. Then me and the 2 cousins went in the Rainforest (which cost RM5) and played games (RM10 each person!).. memang cekik darah ba 1B ni...If only we stayed at CP, we could at least save a few ringgit. I mean, with the amount of money we spent yesterday, we could watch TWO movies if we want to. And what's with the card system? RM3 deposit and RM10 for a card? we could only played 10 times with it. Kalau RM10=20 token oo d CP..WTH la diz... Nevertheless, one should appreciate a new experience. hehh :P We took a lot of pictures, too. Can't complain about that. But I haven't got my hands on the pictures just yet.

After I went home last night, I went straight to bed and endured the fever the whole night. I woke up at 5 and I am A-OK! Except for the runny nose and the occasional throbbing on my head, of course. This is what we call 'ketulahan'. My friend told me I could get sick (for staying up until morning) but I wouldn't listen. I've learned my lesson now. lol

I forgot to blog about something. I went out with my cousins on Wednesday, too. Me, Ain, and Ejum.

Me + Ejum

This was my favorite picture that day. I looked weird in the other pictures. I looked weird here, too, but that's the point. :P

one month's worth of update

Allergic reaction

The itch is at its peak. I can’t stand it anymore!! I have been scratching uncontrollably since supper. Dad said it was probably because of the meat curry. The meat often went in and out of the fridge, and there wasn’t enough space to fit them all in the freezer. So there must be some contamination going on. Besides, I ate it 3 times and it itches right after each meal. It was my fault anyway... I already knew it was the meat the 1st time but I still ate it. Sedap bha. Hahaha... I guess now I understand how dad feels. I think he’s actually allergic to meat, but he still eats them. I’m not really allergic to meat. I don’t want to be. Cuz then I won’t be able to eat doublecheese burger. No, I wouldn’t want that to happen. Haha... EEK!! Gatal!!!!

Kenduri Kahwin Bro Abu

I just want to say... cool. I have a new sister-in-law. :D Actually they were married in August, but they were only able to bersanding on November 29th. But somehow, the fact that he got married hasn’t really sunk in until that day. The wedding was ok. Simple. Next wedding is my sister’s. That’s supposed to be in May. Can’t wait for that - can’t wait for little nieces and nephews, too. ^_^




Final Exam

It was terrrrrible. Embarrassing, it is. I’m planning on not telling anyone about my pointer. Unless of course, if I had 3 n above. Yeah, I’m pretty disappointed with myself. But I guess I just have to do some extra-hard work next semester, don’t I? There’s really no use for feeling sorry now, right? Right...


Tagged by Anna

A few days ago (probably more than a week ago), I opened my chatango and saw Anna’s message saying she tagged me. Firstly, I was in no mood for anything on that fateful day, and secondly, I had no idea what to do if I got tagged. Sorry Anna. I saw that she’s in Doha right now. Cool.


I’m poor.

Downright poor. Ok, not that poor. I do have money, but not much. I wanted to work, but there’s not enough time. Start a business? Well, I’m not good at it. Haha... But, right now, that’s the only option I have (biasiswa habis. Believe it, or not.) My family have enough on their mind to deal with, so I can’t depend too much on them anymore. Besides, I’m 19, ok. I should at least learn to survive, shouldn’t I? Yes. Jiayo2.. haha


Blogs

I’ve been visiting Ahmad Farid’s blog a lot these days, now that I have a sudden interest in money-making. Plus, he always promoted his blog on friendster bulletin. I can’t help but clicking. Haha... It was cool, I guess. His blog reminds me of Valentino's blog, only that val's did not just focus solely on businesses. But just like Farid, he had good ideas and a clear purpose on it...unlike my diary-based blog. While chatting with YM, Hanani pointed out the question that I always try to ignore... “Who would actually read this?” well, in Malay la, of course. huh..sakit. sakit di dada. Haha.. But I admit it though. All I have here are just ramblings about my life written in English, and my life is prety boring, really. :D And it’s too simple, isn’t it? I bet that if I put a chatbox in here, it wouldn’t be filled for a long, long time. The only pride and joy of mine is the teddy bear pictures at the top. A bit messy, huh? Well, it was one of the pictures I successfully edited with photoshop. That kind of reminds me of Anna. Her blog is cool too. I’m not sure how to comment on it, but it’s just cool. Possibly because we can see how much she spends her time on her blog and how many people are interested with it. And I can also see that a lot of other T9s have their own blog, like Herda, AB, Ann Yvonne, n Chai.


Trip to Rumah Anak Yatim Tambunan

This happened a few months ago (17-19 Oct), but I kind of forgot to blog about it. Or too lazy to do so, whichever you prefer. It was a program under Unit Kokurikulum, but let’s not bore you with the details. Can’t believe I actually spilled a few tears after I went on the bus. There was a girl who i got attached with, and dia baaaalik2 salam n cium tangan sebelum kami btolak. How can you not be touched with that? We (us and the kids) exchanged phone numbers before we left, and one kid actually called me! Wa.... but that was a long time ago. I’ve lost contact with them. I forgot to call, actually. Yet, I don’t want them to think we’ve forgotten about them completely. Cause we’re having another trip again next semester. This time, it’s our own trip, and I told them I want to live in a chalet. Don’t ask why, ok. Hahaha...


I’m going out today...

Bilang teda duit, tp jalan... true. But, I do have enough money to see a movie and lepak with my dearest cousins. Having fun once in a while wouldn’t hurt, right?? :D


~It still itches~

at Memeng's

i'm at my friend's house...just chillin'...(aiseh..) we're basically doin nothing... emmy's playing a game at my laptop, memeng's texting as usual, and I'm blogging with her cuzz's laptop.. i wanted 2 study falsafah, but i left the notes at home, n i'm not in the mood to study earth science *yawn*... i'm starting to think that i shudnt have returned to UMS so early. the PF exam is on tuesday, n the (absolute final) due date of the english essay is on monday (i love Ms. Arifah for extending the due date again :D)...and im not really doing any work or studying here. plus, if i'm at home i can at least (try to) help mum around the house. hihi.. it was last night at ums when we decided to sleep here. we planned to go somewhere today - one of the reasons i agreed to sleep here..tp xjd ni. kechewa i. huhu~

o yea... hari tu ada kwn personally ni bha komen psal post yg previousss... "perlukah bf jd topik utama??" hahaha... x bha... bosan bha tu. ok... see... i was somewhat pressurized by people around me. by those who have bf/gf, those who had problems in their relationship, n especially guys who tried me (sorry ya..). haha... sda la kna tkanan study n assgmnt kan. pastu...fkir lg isu money3~ hehe... i know, it might have been the opposite of what i said in my friendster blog, but it was just something i thought of at that moment...kay??? haha...

final XM... takut...uhuu :'(

I think…

I’m bored. i’m not in the mood to do assignments or worry about the exams (which begins at 1st Nov)…and i am kind of...mm... upset, right now... all for the usual reasons.. firstly, BOYS.
i dunno... i get jealous when i see girls with their boyfriends, or SMSing their bfs, or else talking about them.
but ya know, it's pretty hard to find a decent one these days. Based on my observation, the cute ones are usually either poor, uneducated, very religious, or gay; the romantic ones are usually perverted; and the nice ones… well, they’re just too nice to play with…I can’t take them as boyfriends. Maybe I’ll pick one of them later. As a husband.. LOL..
so, now I’m thinking, the hell with it, ryte??...i can still live without a boyfriend, as long as i hav my girlfriends and guyfriends at my side... but then again, i'm still envious of my friends and their boyfriends. :P
be-sidesss.....
boyfriends are FORBIDDEN for me...mom's rule, naturally. i know that that's typical for girls my age, and it also would be typical for girls my age to not care. tp…takut pla jd derhaka kan. Haha… Yet., mcm abg arom ckp yesterday…. Bukan derhaka, berbeza pdpt..hahaha :D
x pa…it’s still too early to have one anyway… baru sem 1. skrg ni main teman tp mesra ja la. Easier. No strings attached. Hahaha

there’s also the laptop and biasiswa dilemma. Haha… FINALLY… I got the money. But first I need to bayar hutang… huhhuu~ then I can buy myself a laptop. Unfortunately, I can’t buy the one I want. (acer aspire 4920, I think) tak cukup duit la…haha… I have to buy other stuff too, that’s why… LOTS of stuff. :D
so…perhaps I can upgrade it later on. The important thing is that I can surf and do my assignments with MY OWN laptop. Yes…

i'm also in love with KAMI right now. too bad they only made 8 episodes..that's even much less than Korean dramas. But it’s still ok. Less is more, I guess... I think they're not too awesome, but they're way cooler than the usual Malaysian series. They don’t totally speak English, and they don’t totally speak malay either. And they all speak in a natural way...well, I think so la. Conclusion: like'em..like'em..
and my GOD, Ali is so cute! i'm not a fan of his hair but it kinda suits him so i guess it's ok. I think his name is Ezani, and the one who played Abu is Nas-t. I’m sure I’ve seen them in a magazine somewhere (I don’t read magazines so much…cant remember). they're supposed to be, like, 16 or 17 yrs old in that story…form 4/5. ryte?? but they dress much nicer than i do. My GODness… I’m such a disgrace to the university students...haha

x pa.. tu semua duniawi.. LOL

owkayy… cheers everyone!

p/s: I forgot my ID n psword for the UMS portal. dang… I am so screwed!!!

lots of surprises, plentiful of fears

a lot has been going on lately....
i've learned, or else realized, a lot facts these days. for one, i jz found out about smthing that's been going on for about a month now. what i fear is that it might've involved me, without myself realizing it. what saddens me is that i was kept in the dark about this. but, yeah..mayb she had her own reason for not telling me so it's ok i guess.

and then there's this 1 person i used to hate, which i decided 2 forgive, that had made me dislike him again. the thing is, even if i nvr was in love, that person had said a lot of things and had boldly promised a lot as well...and that made me angry because it seems like i really was jz another girl to him. and i can't believe i actually felt sorry for him. i see his true colors now...i guess i made the right decision. THANK GOD. :)

and then there's another guy. as usual. (hey...u can't blame me for being a girl. :D) the whole thing seemed to b funny at first, but now that it's over, i cant help being awkward evrytime we meet. i guess we were nvr meant 2 b. (aww..) and he was, and still is, just a friend. so please dont misinterpret my codes...aite?

and then there's an OTHER friend of mine...and i only like him as a friend. just friends. and it's another fear of mine that i might've lead him on..u know, let his hopes up. and i SWEAR i never meant for it to b like that. it's been fun being friends with him.

u know what else i'm afraid of? FINALS. i havent studied yet. at all. and then there's the presentation and assignments and midterms. i mean, who does a midterm exam on the end of the term? like, WTH?? and he just decided to give us assignments. right when i thought the torture is over... owh and about the asgmts? i've been keeping most of the notes, references and asgmnts i had in my 2GB kingmax pendrive and it's GONE. now i'm not really sure what 2 do cuz the english essay is due this week.. i left it in BK4 last friday... during all the excitement of sharing kuih i actually forgot the darn pndrive. it's a good thing i get to borrow this laptop though. at least i can do my work much faster.

so...i guess that's all.

tata! :)

it's 4th October

i want 2 write a rojak of things...

o ya. haqim's bday today. bah...jgn jelez..kbtulan dpt tau hri tu.. siyes ni..calender 2007 tu hlg...xingt bday kmu smwa...hehe... nyways..my mom's bday was 1st Oct..raya prtama ow..aha..next is Flo's...9th..
x lama lg bday ku.............2months...jz 2months left... :D

im bored...mls ni mau bt asgmt...tlampau byk... i jz dunno where 2 start.. lemme see...TITAS is due monday, falsafah n lab report on tuesday, english essay on wed, TKB mdterm + presentation n fieldwork report thurs....friday? owh...jmpa dr harun. asgmt ringan2 aja...haha...pastu silat.yeah! the best place to vent my anger...ngahaha....sabtu kokum la pla...haish...bla mo dating ni...(aiks?) hehehe.. kidding..

hmm...biasiswa...lum dpt...tseksa batinku mmikir laptop sepa kan dpnjam.. huhu.. mau on9 pun susa...smwa keja trbantut sb duit tu lum dpt.. well..actually sb diri cndri jg.. hndak seribu daya, x hndak sribu dalih kan... aku ja yg x mau...2la byk dalihnya..haha...

i want 2 go out...xkira la..beraya ka, tgk wyg ka...asalkan dpt ksronokkan nih.. haha.. tp teda pla org tlg mam cni. although actually it'd still be the same if i'm not here...cuz i'm not doing so much work here...sloth ma aku ni...liat mo bgrak.hahahha

boys...wat about them? nada.. (as in "nothing" in spanish) but i remembered 1 thing my friend said..pasal MENGURAT..haha... aku stil pns smpai skrg... dia kata, taktiknya kunu bgini... msa bru stat msg, truskan kacau dlm bbrapa hri, then stop n wait...until the girl msg back...klu dia sda stat msg balik, means dia suka la tu.. apakah.. ada org ble tlg bt kajian ka tu? cuz i hv a feeling it's happening to me right now.haha.... well....comments are welcomed, plz n tq..

raya...hm...it's ok. although my grandma's sick bcz of gastric..they said that she probably pushed herself during Ramadhan..so xdpt ni beraya. but she's eating again, last time i heard. so ok sda la. for me? it jz sucked cuz i didn get new shoes.. mum wanted 2 wait until after her Bday cuz she'd get a discount for 1 whole month..i can't remember, was it 30% or 50%.. we're also still waiting for that scolarship. i think we're supposed to have it like this month... i'm losing my patience.. but other than that, it's all good.. except for the fact that i was left to do the dirty work at home...my siblings were no help. oo..ingat kmu sda bsar kmu ble kuar ska ati la...nanti kamu...ngahaha... aiseh. xbha.. raya kan.. no hard feelings ma. (as if)

but at least i get to go home..

here's some pics...mcm hari alam sekitar ni

suasana d kg...


d rumah pck cilin...


aunties.. that's my sis with the long curls


cuzzies..miss them. huhu...

there's lots of other pics...but i 4got 2 ask them from my cousins... notice what colours we were wearing.. mostly green n blue. xsngaja bha tu. mcm mnyokong course aku ni. haha... the day b4 my family wore purple. too bad we didnt took a picture of us all..

so tu jak ah...4 now....

toodles!

puasa time!

lama sda ni x post rasanya...skrg bulan puasa... D**n..my tummy hurts...mo celebrate dpt balik ruma kan td....mkn byk2 ni...pdn muka..hahaa... hmm..tpksa censor tu curse word.. sb bulan puasa.hehe....

newayy...y am i not using english?? saja...sb mcm bosan sda. all the readers (if any) must have been malaysians anyway... takde maknenye guna bi. ryt?? hehe... kasi rojaks ja la bhsa ni...antamla phm ka nda. ngee :D

ive said dis b4 but...PENAT owh jd bdak U. mostly sb mnunggu bas,n jln kaki dr dkp-lbry/lbry-sst /kg ab-sst/sst-dkp...n etc... mmm. fyi, dkp=dewan kuliah pusat, lbry=library(duh..mo jg kstaw), sst=sekolah sains n teknologi, kg ab=kolej kediaman AB(where i live). kdg2, xdpt bas, n biasanya, klu dpt pun nek bas, xdpt duduk. tp xma. syukurla...atleast byk jg bas kmi.. lgpun xksah jg bdiri..lg cpat trun bas.hehe... dgr2 ada U yg xbyk bas, n kononnya bas dtg tiap 30min. i dunno...

n then the asgmnts....sda la aku ni jnis xbuat keja. tmbh lg maw bt ESSAY? it's a pain, i tell u... sda jg post ari tu kan, i wanna go home knun tu...lawak ni.hehe.... pastu mo bt group discussion bkan men susa.. sb jdual kmi slalu clash.. n psal grup discussion la aku xdpt tgk abg aku nikah. hmm...xpala. my bad..

pastu kokum lg..interim (interaksi institusi dan masyarakat)... past len lg klu atvt persatuan. tp klu 2 xpala. silat is my passion...currently la. kan besanya hangat2 taik ayam ja. xtaula kali ni cmana. hehe...3 kali sda bt demo ni..memorable jg la, (wlupun x menonjol sgt part aku, yg mana aku x ksah sgt jg) sb dpt lepak sma dorg. mnguatkan jalinan ukhuwah la kiranya.hehe...bes la.bes2...

bha...tata :)

oya...tgh mghrp laptop bru ni. wish me luck! :P

frustrated somehow...

it's mid sem break...tp x mcm cuti pun....

i'll be going back to ums to ums today...it was supposed to be yesterday. tp dmam la pla... dmam plus selsema... i missed silat training and the group discussion because of that. i slept the whole day..well of course i went upstairs once in a while, the toilet,solat... it was around 2am when the fever went down..thank goodness...ive been up ever since. :)

i'm supposed to have silat training from monday to friday this week. we're gonna have a demo this sunday in ums...along with my brothers i think..there's also another one on 31st but im not sure where.. i'm nervous but i cant help being excited...:D i want all of my friends to see the awesomeness of silat cekak ustaz hanafi..hahahaha.. but because of that,i dont think i'll be able to see my brother getting married. nikah hari rabu nie..... mom said no one would be able to pick me up from ums.

nvr mind i guess...dpt jg tgk dorg brsanding nti kan..

and then there are these assignments to do...there's also midterm xm next week...and then ajk tamu gadang... so can u call this a holiday???



so...i just finished watching the panic at the disco concert in malaysia.. i wanted to go there so badly...and i couldn't cuz they're too far away..:( and the tickets aren't really that xpensive. rm88 at the rockzone,rm118 at the lower tier. they even have promotion prices (rm68 n rm98). ok, so maybe they're a little xpensive for me, but at least they're much cheaper than anuar zain's concert in ums. but the people who commented at youtube said that the cncert wasn't that good, because the guards were a pain (taking people's stuff..camera,water bottles), and there weren't so many people, and also, this is my own opinion, that ryan ross wasn't singing..huhu.. but jon's voice was good, so it's ok..i didnt know he could sing that well..^^ he even sounded like ryan somehow. they say he was sick, so he couldn't sing. but, anyways..credits to mtghtv for posting those videos on youtube, and check out morethangoodhooks.com!

survey..survey..

1. So how are you?
~ fine..tq.

2. If you woke up as the opposite gender, what's the one thing you would do?
~ hm...xplore..hahaha..jk! freak out 1st. freak out, of cos...

3. Where is your dad?
~ right over there. sleeping.

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PURPLE IS Q&A

Q: How many beds did you lay in today ?
~ 1

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
~ pink..it's a nightgown actually

Q: What websites do you visit the most during the day?
~ yahoo, fs, blogger.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
~ nopes

Q: Do you own a camera phone?
~ yeahh..

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PINK IS LAST

1. Last movie watched in cinema?
~ can't recall?

2. Song you listened to?
~ maybe. i think it's maybe.

3. Person you last talked/texted on the phone with?
~ last talked to mero.. last sms from flo.

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GREY IS TODAY

1. What are you doing tonight ?
~ laundry..laundry..laundry..

2. What are you going to eat?
~ biscuits..perhaps..

3. Where are you going to be at 2:00am?
~ asleep maybe

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BLACK IS FOR TOMORROW

1.Tomorrow is?
~ monday

2. Are you looking forward to it?
~ not exactly

3. Are you going to laugh?
~ maybe..

4. Who are you going to be with?
~ coursemates..

5. Single or Taken?
~ single..yay!

6. Are you happy with life at the moment?
~ yeah..more like grateful

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The rest

1. What's the last mistake you made?
~ watch tv..i should've done the laundry earier..now i hav 2 stay up..

2. Is the sun shining?
~ no. it's 3.33 a.m

3. Do you like text messaging?
~ sure!

4. Are you having a good/bad hair day?
~ good

5. What was your last purchase?
~ some biscuits n chocs..

6. Are you wearing any make-up right now?
~ no.

7. What are your plans for later?
~ sleep

8. Is there any drama within your life?
~ yeah.. mcm sassy girl chun hyang sda hdup ni..haha

9. What is a song they need to stop playing on the radio?
~ dunno

10. Are you content with life right now?
~ maybe yeah..

11. Does anyone like you?
~ yeah..haha..

12. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
~ of course.. but it depends also..

sometimes i hate english

i like to speak in english, i like reading english, but i hate doing the assgments.. especially, ESSAYS...
mls mo pkir pa mo tulis.. our mini project or mini assgment or whatever is supposed to be about our course. i mean, like, our field of study. i have no idea what to write about.. but she needed to see our references for the assignment in the next class... blur nie.. i dunno what to write la...

still in mega lab now.. i dont care anymore if people see what im posting..i'm still stressed out n i want 2 go home...

UMS

mm... yeah. that's where i'm studying now. that's not where i am currently though. i'm at home actually. i'll only be here until tomorrow. supposedly there's gonna be something at dewan canselor for silat cekak at 2pm, but my brother said i didnt have to go. :D
i have to buy some stuff anyway..plus, next friday, i'm going to kundasang so i can't go home. huhuhu..T.T but i'm still excited to go there. hehe..

it's ok, so far. i'm doing my very best to be as friendly as possible. i'd die if i don't. but i guess my best is not good enough... pretty boring there..

i'm really scared of being a university student. i mean, certainly people would expect the best from me, so i'd have to work really hard. i'm not sure i can do that...everyone knows i'm not the hardworking type.. but i'll try to skema-tize myself as much as possible. haha..new word.

anyways... i see lots of kml students there. one of my roommates was in F2T10. val,rina,n flo also went to ums. but they all go to SKTM...while i'm all alone in SST. okay, so not alone la.. i've made new friends. and i'm beginning to like my course, environmental science, although it's way too far from what i learn in matric. physics is still applied, i'm sure, but i'll only be learning physics in the 2nd sem. but whatever. i get to travel, at least.

so i'll get going....i'm going shopping with my mom. tata.... ^^

Panic obsession?

while getting ready for sleep just now, i had some ideas to put on this blog. so wanna know what i did? i had a cup of milo and put on some music, you know, to get my mind going. and you know what? i forgot what i wanted to write. that is just so typical of me. it's like on the tip of my fingers but i just don't remember what it is..it certainly wasn't about patd.

anyway, i haven't been posting anything lately because there is a problem with my computer, so there's only the old laptop left (i'm using it right now). therefore...i had to wait for my turn to use it. plus, friendster is acting up - i can't upload pictures anymore. but probably it's the internet connection, or this laptop (like i said, it's kind of old...), because my YM is acting up too....keeps getting disconnected. or is it a virus maybe? my brothers always download stuff. urgh whatever. all those problem add up and made me gave up on surfing the internet. well, not really. i love the internet.^^ i'm saying all this because herda asked why i didn't post anything in the friendster blog. so i figured that the world needs an explaination.(right...)

so during all those time when i was frustrated with friendster, i would usually go to youtube and watch my favourite band. recently, i've started to look for their live performance video...just listening to the songs from their album just isn't enough for me anymore. oh, if only i could, just once, see them face to face. talk to them if possible. they're coming to malaysia this august, part of their tour. i went to their website to look for tour dates and saw that they're going to perform at 'stadium niagara' . honestly, is there really such a place here in malaysia? i'm sure they meant stadium negara...don't you think so? anyways..it's not like i can go to their concert or anything..i'd already be in ums by that time..plus, a girl wearing tudung..in a panic at the disco concert? not exactly fitting, is it.. btw, i think they're going to do it after the MTV Asia Awards. i heard, if i'm not mistaken, if we vote for the nominees in MAA, we could get tickets to that event. hell, yeah i'm gonna vote! but yeah..i only want to go there cause patd is nominated for video star (i think). too bad we can't vote for them though. i mean, even if i do get those tickets, it wouldn't mean so much if they don't win.

i don't know why i liked PATD so much... they're really not that good of a band i think. (my sister pointed that out, and i'm starting to think that maybe she's right). probably it's because of the music arrangement, or the arrangement of words in the lyrics, but, bottom line, i'm hooked. i've memorized most of the words now..just can't sing it the way brendon urie does. but i'm beginning to understand what those songs are about. i searched for them in the internet and found them on wikipedia. i read some pretty surprising facts on them, especially that they're actually only a few years older than me, the oldest one should be 23, i think. the youngest one is 20 or 21..not sure, really. which means that, when they had their first album, they were barely out of highschool. (which is good in a way, because they finished school), and ryan ross was in his first semester in college (or did he finished his 1st semester?).. creative writing, i think, and even had a scholarship. those people who commented youtube have also been a real help. so after reading all those facts i fell in love with them even more..yay! haha..

i really liked their songs in the first album, it's just that they're......full of negativity. sometimes i just wish that those bad words aren't really bad words at all cause those songs just sound so good to me. i mean, you kind of lose the fun when lots of words get censored, don't you? nope..no fun. i like their latest songs too.. and, before i heard them, i thought about myself, trying to be a good girl (you know..being religious and getting matured and stuff), so i thought i shouldn't listen to their crap anymore..i was sad to abandon them you know.. but then i saw Nine in the Afternoon MV and i thought that it was cool, and that it actually brought joy to my soul.haha...no, seriously, i really think it sounds good. so i was thankful that they too have matured.. and i started to search for them in imeem, and youtube, and, yes, wikipedia. all in all, they said that they were bored with their songs, cause they have been doing a lot of growing up in the past years and they're not full of angst anymore. it showed in their songs.. although, i think there's still a hint of sarcasm in their new songs but you'd have to listen carefully through the happy notes. i mean, they did say "you don't have to worry cause we're still the same band". but yeah..maybe it's just me. hey, don't get me wrong though. i still listen to their older songs...and loving them everytime. they're just words anyway, and those songs don't represent them anymore.


awesome, they are...

i think another reason why i liked them so much is that none of the people i know are fans of this band..or at least not as fanatic as me. i guess it made me feel unique..i totally like that feeling. don't you? ^^

-peace out-

haven't slept. (insomnia?)

it's already 4 in the morning! i'm so going to regret this later. haven't slept at all... i was a afraid that i would wake up late so i decided not to sleep. i finished packing at around 1.30 and i wasn't sleepy anymore by that time. i tried to sleep but my eyes just won't obey me (most probably because of the coffee i had.hehe).. so i've been wasting my time watching Coffee Prince. i'm going to continue with episode 10 later.

i like this story probably because of the main character, Go Eun Chan. (I mean, her name is 'Chan'. How is that not cute?) She has a strong personality, outspoken probably but have a mature way of thinking. (I can't describe properly. sorry..so you should probably just watch it yourself) One more thing that makes me like her is how much she resembles me so much. You probably think i'm vain, now, don't you? hehe.. no, it's just, well... she likes food, was born in december, blood type O, she laughs a lot, she's comfortable in huge clothes (i am..cuz i can move freely in them)...maybe they're just small things, but i like it cause it made me feel like wanting to be more like her. that is, the hardworking part. she lost her father as a teenager and have been the leader of the family ever since...they became poor after her father died. she took part time and stuff. she always had the boyish manner, therefore, people often mistaken him as a guy. i probably would too, you know.. looking at her, she just reminds me of ryan ross of patd, so cute ^^.

You can probably find it on MySoju.com, boomvid.com, Dailymotion, Crunchyroll (mandarin dubbed), gofish, Youtube, Veoh (not available in Malaysia anymore), etc. (i can't think of any other video streaming websites). but you should really just go to the last 5. the other 2 websites don't upload their own videos.. they really just put together videos from various websites to form full episodes. but they're still cool for doing that, nevertheless. if you're wondering why i know this, well i couldn't download it through veoh anymore so i've searched for it a lot. anyway, i hope you enjoy this as much as i do.. i like the way they decorate the coffee, btw. tres bien. :D

Other Kdrama of my favorites are Sassy-girl Chun Hyang, Full House, My Girl, and Witch Yoo Hee.

Kdrama...a cause of insomnia to me. another one would be Jdrama. it used to be anime, but i've grown out of it probably. not that i don't watch it anymore. ;p

So, btw, plz wish me well upon travelling. hehe..i won't be around for about a week...not unless i can find a CC nearby. hmm...i'll totally miss this laptop....:

Two things.

Final exam results!

It was ok...i'm not exactly satisfied, but considering the amount of effort I put into studying, it was actually better than i expected. Yeah...I didn't study much last semester.. I was so disappointed in myself before but i've learned to make this failure as a source of motivation. Yeah! haha :D


i know someone who got 3++...KFC coming up! sweet.. I've got to spend her mcflurry in return though, not that I mind... she's coming to kk this june. also..there's another friend of mine who got 4flat again. thumbs up la hoh.. hehe... xheran la... he's disciplined....more like skema. haha...jk!

to those who didn't get great results like me...i hope you don't let it get you down. owh..and the next time people ask you how much you got, don't say that it's terrible, eventhough it really is, cuz maybe the one who asked you got worse. haha.. yeah..happens to me all the time.. i mean, if yours are terrible, then what about mine,huh? sad isn't it..haha. to those who got good results? well...well done then. more power to you! hehe

we've already updated the upu...me? kimia industri-ums, sns forensik-usm, chem eng-ump, sns sekitaran-ums, cvl engineering-unimas, sns(tech psekitaran)-uitm, sns gunaan(kimia analisis)-usm, teknologi(mknn)-usm. they're not really what i aimed for... but i planned to change to another course after a year, if possible. mum wanted me to go to ums...so they can take care of me probbly. :D i want to go there too cuz lots of my friends applied there. it'd be cool to study together. :)

i think it's only about 3 weeks away until the result came out. 3rd week of june. i've been thinking about doing revision, u know, prepare myself for university. but....malas. hehehe


holiday

it hasn't really been an interesting holiday...it was ok though...it wasn't really boring. i kind of just found out that doing housework isn't really that bad, so i had lots of things to do around the house. :)

i also went out a few times. once, i went out with a friend and ate a lot without spending so much. i only had to pay for my yoyo (u know...the drink.). it was my day, my friend said...huhuuu!! thankyuuu! i was so full,i didn't ate dinner. haha... if you're reading this, well, thank you n sorry for the awkwardness...and i'm looking forward to eating pizza hut.hehehe.. and then of course, i went out with my best bud. we didn't do much..just went around cp and back home...but we get to share our stories, experience and stuff...she always have something to say and i usually don't mind listening. eh, usually? haha...kidding, nani!
i also stayed at kampung for a week. me n ain(my czn) also went out, but she was with her friend, and i was with hanani. n then there was La Salle's 50th anniversary...also with hanani. hmm...

that pretty much sums up my holiday. kind of boring, isn't it..i mean, minus the issues i had(no biggie...hihi). but nvrmine... i'm thankful as i should be. at least i get to go to kl this monday..yay3! hehe... just me, my mom, n my dad. tambang free ma... now i'm totally looking forward to do some shopping n picture-taking. :D

mukaddimah

I've deleted the previous posts, cuz, they're...kind of...embarrassing. haha... They were made when I was still in KML. I saw Valentino's blog so I made one...just to have something to do.

It's already been 2 weeks since I left there. I didn't think I'd actually say this but I miss that place. Well not really. I just missed our memories. The things we did.

I do get envious though, when I looked at other people's acheivements. My friends who went to study in the peninsular... those who went abroad... those who joined KAKOM... I actually wanted to join kawad but I just happened to forgot that day. ngehee...

I mean, there's just so many that I could've acheived. Yes it's great that we won kawad, and got 4th place in nasyid and that the invention went to semi-finals. But I can't help thinking that I could have done better. Sorry... I just can't help being a perfectionist. The total imperfection just kills me... This is what's killing me actually, me being a perfectionist. Why do you think I take so much time doing things? When I do something I'd usually take in every detail and I try my best not to do mistakes. But getting things perfect is really hard so when even 1 thing goes wrong I'd usually give up. That's another problem of myself, you see. I give up easily. :)

I'll try my best not to be so after this. So let's just hope that we all get good results and get to study further in the courses that we like or we would be able to like. Hehe... I don't want to repeat. I will but only if I don't get a likeable course and if I'm qualified. I thought it was a great idea at first, especially since Herda was so into that idea. But they say you've got to be emotionally strong to repeat. Makes sense don't you think? :