lots of surprises, plentiful of fears

a lot has been going on lately....
i've learned, or else realized, a lot facts these days. for one, i jz found out about smthing that's been going on for about a month now. what i fear is that it might've involved me, without myself realizing it. what saddens me is that i was kept in the dark about this. but, yeah..mayb she had her own reason for not telling me so it's ok i guess.

and then there's this 1 person i used to hate, which i decided 2 forgive, that had made me dislike him again. the thing is, even if i nvr was in love, that person had said a lot of things and had boldly promised a lot as well...and that made me angry because it seems like i really was jz another girl to him. and i can't believe i actually felt sorry for him. i see his true colors now...i guess i made the right decision. THANK GOD. :)

and then there's another guy. as usual. (hey...u can't blame me for being a girl. :D) the whole thing seemed to b funny at first, but now that it's over, i cant help being awkward evrytime we meet. i guess we were nvr meant 2 b. (aww..) and he was, and still is, just a friend. so please dont misinterpret my codes...aite?

and then there's an OTHER friend of mine...and i only like him as a friend. just friends. and it's another fear of mine that i might've lead him on..u know, let his hopes up. and i SWEAR i never meant for it to b like that. it's been fun being friends with him.

u know what else i'm afraid of? FINALS. i havent studied yet. at all. and then there's the presentation and assignments and midterms. i mean, who does a midterm exam on the end of the term? like, WTH?? and he just decided to give us assignments. right when i thought the torture is over... owh and about the asgmts? i've been keeping most of the notes, references and asgmnts i had in my 2GB kingmax pendrive and it's GONE. now i'm not really sure what 2 do cuz the english essay is due this week.. i left it in BK4 last friday... during all the excitement of sharing kuih i actually forgot the darn pndrive. it's a good thing i get to borrow this laptop though. at least i can do my work much faster.

so...i guess that's all.

tata! :)