My blog

It's boring. It was, and still is.

Unless if your sole purpose is to see me talk about myself. I mean, perhaps it would have been interesting to see the english-speaking side of me.

It's funny. Those words would have sounded weird if they come out of my mouth. To be frank, and I probably have said this many times before, I don't speak English very well. It takes about a minute for me to construct a sentence, and another minute to figure out how to pronounce them well. Siuk lagi speaking sabah. haha

Yet, there's always this dilemma ever since I went to UMS. It's stupid, really.
OK. See, the reason why I don't speak English, for one, is that I am afraid that people would think that I am a show off. Also, since I don't speak it well, I am afraid that I would sound like I tried to show off but didn't succeed. And that, ladies and gentleman, would have been utterly embarrassing. haha...
And the dilemma comes when someone actually speaks English to me. Usually I would pause for a minute, then converse in Malay. They understand the language anyway. So, why not, right? lol
Malu ba mo speaking... ahaha...
And this blog is the only way to show it off, without appearing so. Brilliant, isn't it?

Another purpose of this blog is, of course, to serve as a place for me to vent my anger and frustration. Yet, I've always managed to throw most of them away, so you may not see much angst in here. I mean, there's still some, but not to the point of cursing anyone. mm... at least none that I can recall. (ada ka?)

mm... apa lg ya...

Oh, I forgot what I wanted to say. Typical. Haha~


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Otanjoubi omedetou!

It was my brother's birthday, yesterday. 4th April 2009.

And those cakes my brother brought home were marvelous! Especially the cheese ones. ::D
So I also would like to thank my brother's friend, for giving those new cakes and for the ones she gave a week earlier. Hehehe...
Who is this brother of mine, you may ask? Go and visit Borneo Geek Blog to read its interesting posts.

That's all I can give for his birthday. More visitors. lol

Speaking of which, it seems 2 of my ex-classmates have also celebrated their birthdays just recently.
Anisah's was 27th March, Shila's was 30th.

Sorry mates. I forgot. I knew it was your birthday, just forgot to wish. :D
Trus mcm segan ni wish sb lmbt sda..hihi...

Nyways.... Happy 20th Birthday to Anisah, Happy 19th Birthday to Shila, and Happy 33rd Birthday to my dearest bro Paival.

Semoga panjang umur...
Dimurahkan rezeki...
Semoge study OK...

And to my bro....

Semoga cepat kawin.
Amiiin~~!
:P

I did 16. Now it's 25.

Lama suda c alisa tag ni... mau 2 bln sda kali. haha.. sory2. lupee..

The rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random
things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be
tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

If I tagged you, it's because of no apparent reason. Just giving you some form of entertainment.

Dengan kata lain... kamu x buat pun x pa. :)

1. I can b extremely moody at a certain time in a month. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. And FYI, now is that time. muhahaha
2. If I don't like to do something, I'd still do it, just not properly.
   
3. I'm super duper lazy.
4. I'm scared of commitment. Yup2..
5. I am afraid if someone I know founds this blog. That certain someone.
6. I am no longer addicted to the stuff I was addicted to before. i.e. Harry Potter, Panic at the Disco, etc.... (still love them, though)
7. I think I have OCD. Just not as obsessive n compulsive as Monk.
8. I don't think I'm artsy at all. I think I'm going to give up the guitar again. For the third time, I think.
9. I'm no good with people.
10. It is said that I am the type that could be successful in everything I try. However, since I am No. 3, the opposite happens.
11. I no longer like Nescafe 3in1. The smell makes me dizzy.
12. I have posts under "no point whatsoever" just to keep this blog alive.
13. Currently, I am easily attracted to the color pink n red... and purple is still number one. (I used to hate those two colors)
14. When I don't like someone, I would drift away. Ironically, I don't like people doing the same to me. Yes, I am cruel and selfish. Like I said, I am no good with people.
15. My confidence level right now is zero. Probably because of No.1.
    
16. There are times when we need our time alone. I need lots of those times. However, I like having people around. Confusing?
    
17. I'm not good at most things that require strategy. (mcm chess ka...) probably because it requires patience. I lack that as well.
18. Maybe because of No.17, I don't like sports. Except for silat...and jogging... tu pun jrg ni...
    
19. I am extremely shy with men. mm... tida jg extremely la. but i am shy.. shy2 cat. miaow~
20. Goals? mm... I want to earn lots of money & travel. Klu ada laki kaya bgus jg tu.. wahaha.. xbha. :P
    
21. Sometimes it's good to have my siblings in silat. Sometimes... :P
    
22. I don't like to upload pictures anymore because I think it needs a lot of time n effort... especially if I need to edit them.
23. I used to worry about taking pictures of myself, because my pictures usually turn out bad. (nda fotogenik...pa ble bt...) Sometimes, it's because of a certain feature of my face. But now, thanks to kind-hearted friends, mm... I'll say no more. haha
    
24. I rarely make the first move... (x kira la... friends, girls or boys, whatever la) Sebab? Takut kuyak. hahaha... mcm silat cekak pla. menunggu serangan. haha
    
25. This post required approximately 12 hours for me to finish. :P It takes me forever to explain about myself. Klu explen org len sng siiikit.
    

balik UMS

jam 10 sda. mo balik UMS diz...

da*n. the Home/About/Contact/FAQ thing didn't really have any function.
baru sedar...
is it beacause it's a wordpress theme?
ahh
whatever....
mama panggil....
rehan... p makan...

and i said...
emm...
this is what internet does to you...
klu ble mw ja YM sma mama...
mls mw ckp.
haha

bahh

bye :)

Friends

I hate my friends.

They r too nice. haha
No..kidding.
I love them.
But I'm starting to drift away from my old friends. It's not just a matter of distance, but as time goes by, we start to think differently and I start to dislike the way they think and act. And I sort of used my being a U student as an excuse to not contact them often. And then I complained about my other friends for not replying my messages. Serves me right, I guess. I usually just SMS those who I'm comfortable with, or who I know what to ask about, not just those who I have a crush upon. Unfortunately, I believe some of them, might have, misunderstood. And I've realized long ago that probably some of them, also might have, tried to avoid me. Probably the person I'm talking about thought that I'm soooo into him. I admit I have some feelings for him (he is quite attractive), but I know it wasn't love. Or I believe so. He might have misinterpreted my signals or something. But, then again, probably it's just me.
Crap. I had to tell you it's a guy cuz this venting process wouldn't work if I don't. lol
I'm pretty sure he wouldn't read this anyway. =p
You know, sometimes I blame myself for choosing SMSM over MRSM. It seems I am not able to socialize properly with guys. LOL. But rest assured, I still think SMSM was good. I didn't really regret much of it. :)

Friends.

I've heard a lot about friend problem these days, mostly about roommates. I wonder if it's related to final exam stress?
Why, oh why are they fighting??
We need to spread the love.. spread the lovvvvee~

p/s: we turned off our lights for an hour last night. but there were still some houses with lights on in my taman. oh well... probably they weren't too concerned about the environment, or probably they don't think it would actually help. I, myself was a little skeptic about this, but what the heck, 1 jam seja maa...tutup lmpu ja pun. bkan smua.

Yeah...I'm uning manglish again... that means I'm feeling A-OK!